I
was in bed June 19, 2005 when I became Sam McCain. It happened during
a flash of magic, one of those unpredictable windows in the
space-time continuum one reads about in certain kinds of fantasy
fiction. Had I been reading Metamorphosis
during that bewitched, cosmic shift you might at this
moment be reading combinations of only h
and i and
s to represent the hissing sounds I
presume Kafka’s central character might produce. Thankfully no
magic window opened when I read Metamorphosis,
not like the one with Will
You Still Love Me Tomorrow,
a mystery novel featuring the aforementioned Sam McCain, whom I
became instead of Kafka’s humble dung beetle. I don’t mind
admitting this, that I became
the fictional lawyer/private eye, in part because the character I was
reading about, an engaging little Irishman, himself admits to a
cross-identity assumption, that he secretly believes he’s Robert
Ryan, the tall, strapping movie actor.
Mixed
up, mysteried up, shook up world, to play with Lou Reed's little
ditty about a fellow who became
a gal named Lola. Oh, there's no Lola in any of the ten Sam McCain
mysteries. Straight as can be in that sense. Not that I as McCain nor
McCain himself—even in his secret Robert Ryan persona,
presumably--would have found anything wrong had any of the plots been
muddled that way! That which I've read of Ed Gorman's phenomenal
literary canon, celebrates hope in a world seen with unblinking yet
tender clarity no matter how jinxed the view. It was my sense of this
vision at the start of Will
You Still Love Me Tomorrow
that grabbed me
after
setting me up with the epigraph:
I
smell blood and an era of prominent madmen. —W. H. Auden
Then:
“GEE,”
THE BEAUTIFUL PAMELA Forrest said. “He actually looks kinda dopey.”
And
he did.
Here
he was, the world’s first nuclear-powered bogeyman, and he looked
like the uncle everybody feels sorry for because he’s fat and
sloppy.
Nikita
Khrushchev. Premier of the Soviet Union. The world’s number one
Russian. Not to mention Communist.
Athough
I did not know at this point it was Sam McCain speaking, already I
was him—if only to enjoy his proximity to "the beautiful
Pamela Forrest." Little did I know how frustrating this
proximity would prove to be for both McCain and me as I worked my way
through the McCain saga. Will
You Still Love Me Tomorrow
is the second in the series. I read it first, not having any
knowledge of McCain or Ed Gorman, because it was a Father's Day gift
from my wife. She had inscribed it sweetly, hinting that perhaps I
would enjoy reading it "while cruising to Bermuda." I
couldn't wait for the cruise, which came later, so my initiation to
the Sam McCain phenomenon, which led to a treasured friendship with
his creator, came landlocked next to the woman whose thoughtful gift
had introduced us, and who too was reading during our habitual
read-before-sleep time, which, in retrospect, might otherwise have
been spent more wisely, as the title's yearning question no longer
for us begs a fortuitous answer. Happier exponentially answering the
question more directly:
the immediate tomorrow of my discovering Ed Gorman has come and gone
but I cannot begin to imagine, no matter how many tomorrows I may
have left, answering that question any other way than Hell
Yes!
Thinking
back, it occurs to me there probably was no magic flash that turned
me into Sam McCain that fateful eve. At least not in a fantasy
physics sense, as Ed Gorman, whose oeveure includes science fiction
as well as westerns, noir, horror, and genres I'm likely forgetting,
would have told me. Too modest to admit it, though, he'd merely have
flashed a leprechaun grin at the suggestion it was his storytelling
sleight of hand alone that made the magic. And then he'd have
reminded me of the things McCain and I had in common:
McCain practiced law and worked as an investigator for the local
judge in his hometown, the fictional Black River Falls, Iowa; my dad
practiced law in our small Wisconsin town where I was a high school
senior when Krushchev visited Roswell Garst's Iowa farm. The
detective part? I'd been reading detective novels from the time I
discovered them in the little bookcase my dad kept near his favorite
chair in our living room. Ed Gorman captured me by capturing the mood
and the feel of a small prairie town and its people. Especially Sam
McCain, whom, had I not grown up to be a mild-mannered newspaper
reporter (sans tights and cape), might well have had a career quite
like that of my fictional alter ego.
McCain
is not my father's detective type. He's neither the classic
hard-boiled nor cozy mystery solver. Were he Jewish he'd be
describing himself what in Yiddish is called a schlemiel, a chump.
But that is just his modest way of self-appraisal. In truth he's a
smart, tough little guy who can face his fears, handle himself, and
get the job done. He doesn't often get the girl, although not for
lack of trying (see opening reference to "the beautiful Pamela
Forrest"). He loves his sister (I have one, too) and his
parents. One description of his dad, in the first book of the
series—The
Day the Music Died—is
so honest and poignant it chokes my throat up with each reading:
I
still remember standing on the platform at the train depot and
watching my dad wave to us when he came home from World War II. I was
shocked. My parents are small people. My mom is five-two and has
never cleared ninety pounds. But I’d grown up with my mom and was
used to her size. My dad was a different matter. I’d seen a lot of
John Wayne and Ronald Reagan— two of the many brave movie stars who
hadn’t actually gone to war— war movies, and so I just figured my
dad would be this big heroic kind of guy, too. He’d been gone a
long time. Well, he wasn’t big and heroic-looking. In fact, he
looked like a kid. He was five-six and weighed maybe 130 and had
dishwater blond hair. His khaki uniform looked too big for him, gave
him a vulnerability that made him seem even less soldierly. He was an
utter stranger to me. The last time I’d seen him I’d been seven
years old. I felt sort of ashamed of him, actually, how young and
vulnerable he looked in the midst of all these other towering GIs.
Why couldn’t I have a dad who looked like Robert Mitchum? And I’ve
always been ashamed of myself for feeling that. I know that when I
see him in his coffin over at the Fitzpatrick Funeral Home, that’s
what I’ll think of, *how I betrayed him in my heart that first day
he came back from the war.
And
this, lest there be any doubt about our (McCain's and my) political
leanings:
Dad
had all the insecurities that go along with being a small and
somewhat delicate man. But instead of using them to hate or bully,
he’d turned them into empathy and wisdom. He always watched the CBS
Evening News with Douglas Edwards and watched what the white cops
were doing to black people trying to ride whites-only city buses.
Stuff like that got to him as much as it did me. Even my mom, who
didn’t vote because she hated all politicians equally, had tears in
her eyes when she saw little Negro kids blasted off the streets with
fire hoses and their parents clubbed to their knees.
The
McCain series is set in the years 1959-71, with their pop-song titles
corresponding to the times of the stories. The first one, The
Day the Music Died,
begins on the day commemorated by Don McLean’s eponymous song, when
a plane carrying rock ‘n’ roll stars Buddy Holly, Richie Valens,
J.P. “The Big Bopper” Richardson crashed near Clear Lake, Iowa,
killng all aboard.
The novel opens with Sam McCain and “the
beautiful Pamela Forrest” driving home from the group’s final
performance at Clear Lake.
McCain
isn’t one of those fictional characters who never ages despite a
series span of decades. His finale, Riders
on the Storm,
has him recently returning home from a five-month hospital stint
after a drunken jeep accident when he was a National Guardsman. He’s
lost some of his smartalecky edge. In fact, well, let’s let him
tell us:
I top a small hill and gaze down at the moonlit homes stretching
out before me. Senators love to bluster about how the rest of the
world envies us, and when you see this portrait in shadow and light
you have to agree with them. Solid houses, good jobs, bright futures.
Too bad we were losing thousands of our troops— not to mention even
more thousands of innocents— just so two fine fellows named Johnson
and Nixon could play John Wayne…
This
was the seventies. I indulged in liquor, grass and sex. I’d lost my
religious faith, I’d lost most of my faith in the political system
and I knew how corrupt our system of justice was. And if I had to sit
down and count up the number of lies I’d told in my life, a fair
share to women I’d cared about, I would be one hundred and
thirty-four before I could stand up again.
Sam
McCain died 17 days ago, along with the man who gave him the life he
shared with me. Ed Gorman promised me several months ago in the last
email I got from him that another McCain novel was in the works. I
kinda knew better, because Ed had been seriously ill during the years
I came to know him after that auspicious Father’s Day 11 years
ago. A type of cancer known as multiple
myeloma finally killed him. I was never blessed with the honor and
the pleasure of meeting him in person, or even speaking with him on
the phone. But there was never any doubt he was a friend—from our
first exchange of emails. And dammit now he’s gone for good, and so
is Sam McCain.