He
didn't start to notice her, really look at her, until he'd been
through any number of shrinks. (The “any number” was as close as
he could come to estimating, as he'd never liked math, avoided it
whenever possible. Had he cared, he knew, he might have gone back in
his memory and listed them—the shrinks—by body language: fidgety,
bored, tedious, intense, male, female, ambiguous, obese, anorexic,
intimidating, timid, that sort of thing, in any combination. But he
hadn't. It was Aggie, he realized with a start, who was the constant
in all of this. The shrinks came and went. Never any reason given. It
was Aggie, the nurse or aide or secretary or whatever she
was—hospital administrator for all he knew—who remained. And when
the moment arrived that he realized this, when it dawned on him,
slapped him awake from wherever he'd been, from whatever depth of
cognition or intuition or somnolent withdrawal or last-ditch delusion
or—what the hey—unwitting denial, the suddenness and clarity of
the recognition of Aggie, disturbed him more than anything that had
come to mind thus far. Disturbed him so much the erection he'd begun
to think of as permanent grudgingly released its tyrannical grip.)
[to be cont.]
Hi Mathew. I'm over here, beginning at the beginning. Unfortunately I have run out of time, but I'll read more of these fascinating snatches tomorrow. Is there obsession? Oh, I hope so. Dianne McKnight
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